14 july 2006
countdown :20 sexy days (:

i didnt update for quite long because im really busy with many stuff. with studies, friendship problems and many other stuff tumbling down at me and i feel really sick and tired but i will never ever let my friendship problems affect my test like today. never because YOU are not worth me doing that, sacrificing my studies for you. i dont care if you think im bitchy or bimbotic or whatsoever. once again, its tumbing but its nothing to be upset about because i know i shouldnt let things affect me.you are no longer the center of my life. i thought i was ready to share all my problems with you again but since you though not then i've decided to let you make the decison. even if you decide its better for us to have a clean break for this friendship, i respect you because im mentally prepared. Whatever the outcome is, it wont affect what im doing now and i've alrdy stated my aim. my o'lvl is my priority and serving God cos he will never let me down. i havent settled my own problem and now i have others to solve but God prompted me to help (:
pray for me please.

i think this world is full of obstacles to overcome and once you overcome it, you will be stronger so perservere on. so take heart aileen (: everything's gonna be alright yea? i will fail my fuction test today because i left many questions untouch. i trusted in the Lord and its not that he doesnt want to help me, but its that i didnt do my part by studying 100%. this is certainly disheartening and im quite distracted during the test but i will guarantee i'll from now on put in 110% in whatever i do esp my studies.

Uniform to church this sunday and it will be super embarassing.

spirit touch your church,
stir the hearts of man.
revive us Lord
with your passion once again.
I want to care for others like Jesus cared for me.
let the rain fall upon me.

i fasted for this friendship to work out,
prove something to me.
Dont disappoint me.
i need a friend like you alot.


14 july 2006
i had a bad day.
signed off; gina