a long day.

started off normal. ended of badly. i started fasting today and i fasted lunch and recess, goona fast recess till my birthday i guess. i was super hungry and wanted to go home immediately after school to study for my coming 2 test tmr and its gonna be disastrous. Mdm toh told my class that we did very badly for A math test and i studies hard for it okay, but i know i will fail cos of the graph. Im just disappointed.
Then i had a covnersation with one of my friend and i guess he was upset by what i had said. Its not his fault that his thinking differs from mine. I felt that this friendship was dying maybe because i lack the commitment and i know im pessimistic when it comes to the matter abt friendship because i always think abt the worst situation and consequences abt it. Thats why i never thought i can be a good friend and perhaps many friends left me? Im just upset by what my friend had said but its not his fault cos he doesnt like my thinking. I dont deny that i really love him as a friend, i love him so so so much but to me, all this is coming to an end because i know myself, thats my weakness. i've ended many frienships off like that i guess because i did not trust the friendship. but im really hurt, really hurt by that. He asked me not to think about it but i must first apologise to him first. Then, he said God will see this friedship through. I will wait and see what happens, and if it ends, i wont pursue it anymore..

you know that im referring to you.

i love you.
i need you.
i miss you.
you know whose the you.
sorry.


GINA.