14 february 2007

finished. it started off well today, where the whole school was so bright, everyone giving gifts and just wishing ppl happy valentine's day, this is the first yr that i actually do something for ppl that i know and for my whole entire class. it really went well but who knows... something stuck me so hard at the back and knock me out.

lost, finished, eliminated. i cant accept the fact that yes, the history repeated itself again. the dream of tp, we asked big, but where are we. second round zonals. i lost to myself. its not that we didnt play our best, i can confidently say that we really played well but its really saddening. the sec 4s can say goodbye and go ahead with their studies, and then think back 10 yrs down the road and say" why have i achieved in netball in fmss?"

the answer is: experience, heartaches, pains.

people tell me that makes you grow stronger, i do not deny that but why must something that i asked big and go so deeply for taken away from me? God's plan...

it supposed to be a good valentine's day, then when i needed just an encouraging word from you or just a simple conversation and you cant do it? im like a punching bag for you to cast all your burdens and unhappiness on, have you thought for me, that i am going through just the same, why cant you just be more sensible and wake up? im not a machine that never break down, HELLO, I AM A GIRL, AN EMOTIONAL GIRL. can you just show me the basic respect by just replying normally? its not easy having to handle something that is so badly taken away from you, and then the stress from all external factors and that's when u want to give up but you cant because you want to shine for God, you want to do well, and give out your best.


the day is over.
the match is over but i just cant move on.
give me time.

fairfield wingattack;